9 swords – Darkana

I shuffle and intend for a card that will have something that speaks to everyone who reads it that month. This month’s card of the month is the 9 Swords from the Darkana deck.


It shows a mobile of swords dangling above a baby in a cot. This card is about the ways in which we torture ourselves. We are both the swords and also the baby. We often injure or threaten injury to the most vulnerable, and often innocent, parts of ourselves, with our words and thoughts about ourselves. So, though there may not be any actual injury to be seen, we are hurt and put into a state of fear through our own negative self talk. We condemn ourselves for what we have done, or have not done, or thought about, in fact anything we can turn against ourselves. So through February our tendency to feel bad about ourselves and tell ourselves how unworthy we are is high. However this is also a month of healing – with this threat we can become aware of our hurts from many years back. Often the things we say to ourselves are internalised forms of anger about the past. We criticised ourselves or made something our fault because as a child it was easier to take blame upon ourselves than to really experience the powerlessness we felt, and consuming anger against someone we possibly also loved very much. For a small child the conflict can be too much – we would rather turn the anger to ourselves.

We may have developed strategy of feeling bad about ourselves, or guilty for things, to pre-empt, and seemingly lessen the blow of criticism coming our way, whether or not it was justified. So you might find yourself feeling bad about something in order to stop the feeling of fear of punishment or criticism from someone else.

With these deep, often childhood, patterns, often we don’t know they are active – we simply feel uncomfortable in some way or we feel down. Perhaps irritable with other people for no apparent reason. As these inner processes become conscious then we can take charge and heal ourselves. The situations that bring up these uncomfortable feelings can bring with them the gold of the healing of the deep, or more recent past.

This month have a think about how you put yourself down, how you perhaps feel guilty about things that are not your fault, or feel guilty rather than rectify a situation you did have a part to play in (to keep that negative yet familiar feeling coming). As you become aware of how you do this to yourself – also then recognise this is a response to a very early situation – you have an opportunity to heal it. Trace it back and send love to that child you were then, getting by the best you could in the circumstances, which may have been less ideal for you, and possible for the others involved in the situation too. As you send yourself compassion you are likely to start to feel better. You can recognise in the current situation that what is happening doesn’t threaten you the way your situation of origin did – we are not helpless as adults, but have many resources available to us. We can respond in many different ways and can choose which is right for the here and now, rather than instinctively acting from the past.  So you find ways to both be compassionate with yourself and also from this place find new ways of seeing the situation around you and responding in a way that serves you and is more appropriate for the present. It may simply be a case of realising you are having a go at yourself needlessly and having the courage to trust in yourself anew.

The threats you feel are around you right now are not external, but reflections of your internal fears – work from this place and you can take that dangerous looking mobile down and allow the baby to continue to sleep peacefully and safely.

There is no need to worry something will go wrong that is out of your control, nor is there need to worry about your performance being good enough. Use this month to unpick your past patterns of self cruelty and release the energy stored there. By the end of the month, if not before, you will have transformed this energy into an ally and know that feeling uncomfortable with yourself can lead you to great healing, and thus more joy and freedom in life to be who you are – not just responding through a taught guilt or responsibility that you don’t actually believe in, or perhaps is not even relevant any more.

As part of your compassion for yourself seek out friends and professionals that you can trust to witness your process without judgement. You don’t have to heal without support, in fact seeking and asking for help can be a huge part of the new compassion you are sending your inner vulnerable self. Someone to help you take the mobile down safely.

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May you find great gold through this month and it serve you well.


January 2015 and the year ahead


The reading for January and also for the year ahead if from the Llewellyn Deck. I have decided to post about 2 cards this time one for the month of Jan and one for the year as a whole and I see we have a lovely energy for 2015 and make a great start in January with a successful breakthrough.

January is 6 Wands. This depicts a warrior returning from battle as the victor, he sits upon his horse in a very upright manner and holds his head high, the challenge behind him has been over come and left him feeling strong and secure. Ready to celebrate the victory.

6 Wands Llewellyn tarot from http://Llewellyn.com

6 Wands Llewellyn tarot from http://Llewellyn.com

So in January you see a further release from challenge, this process started back in October last year and when through a preparation phase in November to then really start working through December. Things that have been holding you back for much time in the past are continuing to release you into freedom – you may feel a need to continue seeing yourself, your impulses and actions in a positive light and continue to have the courage to hold your head high, rather than to slip back into old traps from the past. Not that your past is being evokjed this month, but that habit could tempt you to slip. Remember things have changed and it is not like it used to be – you have won the battle – you need not feel you have a continued fight on your hand – you just need to assume that walking in the direction of your passions will lead you to better and better things, not down an old worn path as you occasionally fear.

It is a month to think positively about events and happenings in your life – not because the power of positive thinking makes difficult things go away magically, but because many of the things you think could be difficulties are not in fact – the greatest difficulty will be the courage to assume the best will happen and trust that thinking positively will not jinx events in some way.

Trust in yourself – you know deep down you have only highest goals in mind – this month you can trust this, and assume others can see this in you and any perceived conflict is simply each person expressing their own individual freedom. As you can accept you have this freedom of choice and to act on your desires in a wholesome way – so it is easy to allow others this freedom too and promotes harmony for all.

So be self confident and self assured, walk tall and hold to your own personal power. The feeling of stability and acceptance will ripple out to all others around you and help them experience the same feelings about themselves. Arrogance is lost as you no longer feel it is only you – but you share your positive view of yourself in your extension towards others – seeing them as deserving and being as good and as worthy as you feel you are yourself. There is no selfishness in your stance. In fact any wobbles of confidence you feel are not as the result of others undermining you – but of your own self denigration from habit, rather than reality. As you remember this as soon as you feel a judgement of another come upon you know that this is simply what you are saying to yourself and can be dropped. The instance you let go of it your view of another returns to loving, compassion, and your own freedom of choice to act also returns quickly.

So do what you need and want to do, don’t feel beholden to others, nor fear being selfish. Love and compassion grows within you as you drop old battles and walk forward confident refreshed and strong. Challenges are easily over come this month  and others look to you for leadership, and you given empowerment as you leading method.


3 Cups From Llewelly tarot - http://llewellyn.com

This is a great start to a year that promises social connection with true friends as its main theme. We have 3 cups as the card for the year as a whole and this is a strong card of friendship and joy. Often connected to celebration also, but in a wholesome, deep way rather than simply hedonistic pleasure. On the card there is a full moon celebration depicted with 3 women being out in nature celebrating the turn of each cycle of the moon as the year unfolds. So too regularly through the year ahead you will find yourself gathered with friends and close family to celebrate. Also to constantly remember to renew yourselves. You may decide to commit to some regular meeting with like minds in this year and allow these meetings to be places to share what has been happening as a way of letting go of the recent past to bring yourselves into the present more and more. As you no longer create stories that define you, so you are free to move into whatever your soul inspires you to in the present moment. Your experience of living becomes more and more connected to the current moment and less and less a reaction to past events and situations – the deep past becomes completely clear and the more recent past isn’t carried with you.

From this comes the ability to celebrate each moment of our lives anew. The celebration with others helps us also stay aware of the differences we each experience in our life paths and how each person uniquely has something to offer the world. There is no need for us to be the same or see things the same way – but as we witness each other we both teach and learn at the same time and share our increasing joy together. Joy is a key feeling and experience in the year ahead, it stays in reach by our willingness to be in the moment and to release the difficulties of the past.

By our awareness of natures cycles we come to see and understand our own and so become less attached to our emotional experiences – the everyday up’s and downs of life become something we experience, but also observe. Our identity becomes increasingly associated with the observer and so we find ourselve more detached from the everyday turning of the wheel and are in our center more and more often.

So seek out chances to connect with others in loving exchange, to socialise and be with others who simply accept you for who you are, whatever you are experiencing at the time. And focus on constant release of the old, and embracing the new fresh day as the year progresses.

On a mundane level you might find that you have a close circle of friends and or family around you who are supportive of you in all your goals. Your may also find you are invited to social events more this year than usual, which are enriching experiences. Your circle of friends may widen and connections with people you already know deepen.

Celebrating the darkness within as well as the light as all part of what makes us unique and also connected. Our difficulties can bring us together as much as our joys.

Through these connecting energies this year we grow organically and from impulses deep in our soul. There is no rush or striving needed, just the need to allow space, time, and nourishment of our dreams. They will then grow naturally of their own accord.

Happy New year to you all – the year promises joy and friendship, happiness and release from struggle – your hard work has paid off.

Review of Prediction Annual 2015

Here is my review of the Prediction Magazine Annual 2015.
The Prediction Annual for next year, 2015, is an a5 sized, glossy magazine about a centimeter thick and looks like it promises a lot. When I looked at the content list I was inspired to see a number of different divination and predictive methods represented – western astrology, vedic astrology, chinese horoscopes, tarot, and a couple of articles on the first new moon of the year and lunar and solar eclipses. Western astrology is certainly the bulk of the content though, with pages 17 to 170 covering month by month astrological predictions for each sun sign.

Prediction Annual 2015

The first article is tarot predictions and gives two cards from the Rider Waite Deck per month through the year. Talking about meaning for about half a page for each. Then we move onto an article about the first New Moon of the New Year. I really enjoyed this article, with mention of how the other planets are interacting at this time and also what we might expect at a more community level.

Then we move into the western astrology section – here we have a full page of predictions for each month of each sun sign, so it takes up the majority of the magazine – it highlights different areas of life each month such as love life, work, family, friends etc. Depending on what areas are most active that month. It is written in a very accessible manner and makes no mention of what planets are doing what with each other – just gets straight to the likely interpretation of the sky. Personal I felt this was a shame, though I am sure for many people hearing what is means is more to the point than the technical aspects of why.

Next we have the vedic horoscopes for the year with a need to bear in mind the date ranges for each sign is quite different from western signs. Some good advice but with only half a page, per sun sign for the year ahead, it’s a bit thin on the ground in terms of information.

We then have a ‘Week as a Glance’ where there are overall predictions for each week of the year in a few sentences. This is actually quite interesting as there comments on political energy, media energy as well as the personal, and mention is made of the planets positions and influence which I personally likes a lot.

A short article on the eclipses in the year ahead then follows and then we finally move onto Chinese astrology, with a few sentences for each animal sign and a chart to help you decide which is you if you are not already aware. Again this is an article I would have liked to see more content for.

The final article on the upcoming year sign – the Year of the sheep was very interesting and worthwhile reading, just over a page long it detailed the sorts of things to expect in a wider general sense in society in the coming year.

So some interesting things in the Prediction Annual – my personal conclusion was one of disappointment though, as there were some good potential articles but they were very short, and the main body of the magazine was written on western astrology without much mention of where the predictions were coming from. Though this may appeal to many people, I wonder about the value of the magazine as a whole as for almost £8 it seems rather expensive, especially when so many glossy magazine will offer similar astrological predictions through the year as free pull outs, with the magazine itself being almost half this price.

6 of wands – illuminati

This month I thought we would stick with the new Illuminati deck. This month’s card is 6 wands.

Kim Huggins and Erik Dunne - Copyright LoScarabo

Kim Huggins and Erik Dunne – Copyright LoScarabo

The image is very busy as most of this deck’s cards are, however it means all the image is in focus, rather than just the foreground, this enables us to consider meaning in many places of the image as equally important. So what do we have for December?

We see a warrior returning from battle victorious, and being acknowledged for all he has overcome. He has returned victorious. You can see the gold of his costume representing self-esteem and confidence that comes from being honed through challenges. The people greeting him adorned in bright colours, their own self esteem high, rich and lush, they are able to see and truly understand what this warrior has gone through to achieve his current position. With this knowledge they look up to him and honour him for his strength courage and bravery.

So in December we find ourselves reaping our harvest, we have survived the challenges of the year behind us and come out on top. not only are we feeling more confident and proud of ourselves but others can recognise what we have done too – we are seen for our efforts.

We have also come home – back in the safety of the castle we can rest rejuvenate and restore ourselves amongst friends and family are an arduous set of challenges. So enjoy this month in celebration of what you have achieved. Earlier in the year you may have dismissed the efforts you were making as not being enough – or finding things difficult where you felt they should have been easy. You may have found others wondering what the issue was. This month however things are very different, as you look back you see the hard work and effort was worth it and you are able to appreciate yourself fully – without shame. Others reflect this back to you as you hear peoples thoughts and comments on what you have done and realise others do see your value and appreciate you for the risks you have taken, your bravery and your courage.

The challenges may have been on an inner level – you may have been fighting old patterns of thought and behaviour, perhaps battling with depression or some form of psychological demon. Often unseen these battles we do alone, or with just a few to support us, this month though you find acknowledgement and support everywhere. Focus on acknowledging yourself, giving to yourself credit for the things you have had to face. Dealing with painful events requires a great deal of courage and the determination of the inner warrior, as you recognise yourself so your external world will understand you also and you will feel welcomed.

The challenges may have been on a physical level, an illness, difficult living conditions, work or money, these too you have addressed head-on or with conscious strategy, as you have taken on the fight so you have used your courage and resilience to keep battling on – this month sees solutions, victory over difficulties and the chance to rest, celebrate and enjoy comfort with others in a place of safety and support.

Whatever the challenges have been you have used them to further your spiritual growth, consciously or as a by-product, and now life rewards you for your effort. Enjoy your days spent with people – honour the team’s contribution to your efforts and recognise each person who congratulates you has their own areas of victory and valour, their stories of bravery and challenge. As you realise each person has their own battle field and turns up to do battle each day, so you also share your honour with those around you. You inspire some as they inspired you previously, you become a beacon for what is possible if you set your mind to it. And you build support within yourself for battles that will challenge you in the future.




Ace of Wands – Illumiinati

This month I introduce a new deck – The Tarot Illuminati, by Kim Huggins and Erik Dunne. I have been using this deck as an app for a while now and really like it so I recently purchased the actual deck and am using it here for this months Card of the Month reading.

By Kim Huggins and Erik Dunne - published by Lo Scarabeo

By Kim Huggins and Erik Dunne – published by Lo Scarabeo

Appropriately enough for using a new deck we have a card representing beginnings for November, the Ace of Wands. This card represents inspiration and creativity in all forms and the start of something new that we have great passion and enthusiasm for. So in November we are likely to be introduced to new ideas, to have some great inspiration and feel a lot more energised than we have done for a while. The personal power we gained through October now sets us up in a centered place to allow our inspiration to flow forth from our deepest selves. Pay attention to your ideas and possible projects, write them down and record them as you will have more than you can act on at this time – but keeping a record will help you have a resource to turn to at a later date to inspire you when you feel less connected with your depths.

As we can see from the image our dreams are built amongst the mountains of aspirations, and the city we  see pictured here has a regal and spiritual feel to it, in the same way your ideas this month spring from a spiritual source which will help you express your deepest self and access your true nature. They will help you be who you really are – giving you a platform for expression. Choose to start to work on the ideas that you have the most passion for to follow your truth the most accurately.

It is a month for asking yourself, ‘what do I have the energy for right now?’ and following that energy, you may not feel like doing what you planned, and as you ask yourself what you do feel like doing and follow up on that you will find things flow much more smoothly and you will see much more clearly what needs to grow in your life and what needs to diminish to give you a life that is both balanced and an expression of your true self.

Creative pursuits are highlighted this month too as they will help this process. The seeds of new creations are planted and though they may not come to fruition this month, the roots will be put down and they can then be allowed to grow organically through regular nurturing in the months ahead before they are ready to flower. This nurturing will need to be little and often so pace yourself rather than thinking that the high energy you experience this month will continue indefinitely. This month’s enthusiasm is to help your ideas germinate and take root, and will then reduce a little in the future to give space for other aspects of your life to be dealt with. If you think of your dreams like the growing of plants, there is a bit input of energy at the start as we prepare the ground, plant the seeds and take care of the initial seedlings, then we can simply water each day and weed, taking a little of our time and be patient, until the next high energy phase of harvest. Trust your energy levels right now without clinging to them as necessary in the long term.

Use your will to make the thing happen you know are needed in your life right now. Taking action brings positive results. Allow your vision to guide you and disregard those who would tell you you have pipe dreams – your aspiration may be impossible from their perspective, but if you heart is telling you this is the way to go then it indicates that these ideas are very possible to come to fruition in your world, given your will, energy and patience.

In relationship terms you may find November brings new friendships and relationships that are really in line with your own energies, people you have a lot in common with and who share passions in your life. There is a gathering of forces to create something more that the sum of the parts. Perhaps a romantic relationship finally takes off or you meet someone out of the blue who matches the sort of person you were looking for. It maybe you have been searching for someone to share a creative pursuit with and now you find yourself meeting people who could fill this role in your life and you in theirs. Allow yourself to take up those invitations courageously and see where they lead. It may be helpful to create a list of what you are looking for to help you know when you find it. The clues will be evident in the first meetings.

A month with high excitement and energy, you have the inspiration to recreate your life again. Enjoy!





Page of Swords – Mary El

This months card is the Page of Swords from the Mary El deck. This powerful image can evoke a strong response. The woman is tattooed with a red dragon and she has won the right to wear the dragon through her strength and integrity. This card speaks about having a deep strength within ourselves that we can rely on. We have survived battles in our lives without becoming bitter and are still full of youthful fighting spirit. There is no fear, we can stand up for ourselves, our truth and anything we have strong beliefs about. We stand fully in our power able to affect change in the world simply by coming from our center and from our truth. Areas of her body that are emphasised are the heart and throat, so this month speak openly your truth to the world. Have no fear, you are able to carry this power because of your experience and your personal growth. You know enough to take a stand where things are unjust. You are not frightened to challenge the status quo in situations you find yourself in as you have the faith in yourself that you can handle the uncertainty and then respond in the highest way when things are uncovered that others would rather push under the carpet.

Page Swords

So this month sees us feeling a lot of our personal power, our courage, and also our passion. Events trigger feelings in us which show us where our passion lies and ways open up for us to follow the passion we discover. We might be asked to start something new which may cause us to feel fearful about where it will lead, however we have this inner resource of courage and self-confidence we can rely on. Remember what you face now, even though it may remind you of something from the past, it is not the same situation. You have experienced so much since the memory you are recalling, you have a wisdom and strength that is much increased and with this the power to create something new from similar building blocks – the power to create something that is more in line with your truth now. Trust and step forward into the scarey places. The risks you take now you will be able to follow through with in joy and passion. You have the strength to deal with the line between earthly needs and spiritual needs, that the dragon so often represents. That boundary between the two can now be walked with confidence.

There is no need to hide behind image and glamour – you can be yourself through this month, as you are vulnerable and also open so your true strength can be seen. Your strength lies in your vulnerability and there is no need to feel you have to ‘cover  up’ some part of you to make others feel comfortable, nor do you need to protect yourself through half truths and deceit. You can just speak your truth and know when to be silent, trusting yourself and knowing you can handle any conflict that arises through your expressed personal power. Remembering too that those who you may have hidden your light from in order to gain acceptance in the past, in this new time, will not be the people you are trying to address – your very honesty and openness will draw those to you who match this authenticity and are of  like minds to you. All others will slip away and you will gain deeper more fulfilling connections with the world around you, without judgement nor conflict.

So a dynamic month when there may be new opportunities presented to you. Take what has heart for you and leave the rest – focus on your authenticity and strength and move forward fearlessly. You may feel drawn to fight for a cause or rebel against a standard procedure or status quo – allow yourself to follow your heart and the truth, whilst maintaining personal awareness of your truth in any moment – as you do this you can benefit more than your own goals and can help organisations, groups of people and many others to find their truth and move forward where there has been stagnation.

Strength – Xultan Deck

This month’s card is Strength from the Xultan deck. This deck departs from the traditional style images of strength of a woman and a lion or beast tamed. Here we see a cactus in full bloom – none the less the energy of the card is very similar. We see a natural energy restricted, a cactus growing in a pot, yet despite this restriction it is in bloom and thrives. In many shamanic traditions plants are used as teachers and help us learn to understand our deeper selves and to be able to contain our darker sides without repressing them, yet making them work for our, and others overall good.

From Xultan Deck

From Xultan Deck

So this month we see themes of experiencing and developing our inner strength. This comes about through knowing our shadow selves and accepting these more undesirable sides of ourselves, as we do so so the gold they also contain is released for our use. As an example, anger and rage are often parts we would rather not have or experience within ourselves, however if we avoid feeling angry and spend too much times saying “its ok, no I am not bothered by x, y or z” then we weaken our sense of who we are and unconsciously our anger builds up inside. Often this can lead to unconscious manifestation such as accidents, or slip ups where we betray or let someone down even though we have been doing our best to be understanding and good. Conversely if we allow our own recognition of our anger, with acceptance and compassion towards ourselves also this leads us to be more assertive in situations which require our boundaries, and to not allow the build up of anger unconsciously and so we feel more in control of ourselves and in charge of our lives. We are able to say no to what is not for our highest good and we have the strength to speak our truth even in the face of opposition. Often voicing other peoples concerns which have yet to be expressed. We work more effectively for the good of the whole.

So this month be aware of all your feelings – even those you would rather not experience. Ask yourself what is the grain of truth this feeling is leading me to, even if the feeling feels out of proportion to the event. Acknowledge and accept you have a right to feel how you feel and once you allow yourself to know how you feel you can then have the strength not to allow your feelings to control you, but to inform you, you find the golden ability to truly respond to situations you are in with full authenticity.

This month sees a time for this inner strength to be more and more conscious within your life – it is less likely that you will be holding back unnecessarily, but more that you will be able to be more compassionate with yourself and others, and more able to act from your center without feeling guilty or apologetic for your responses.

Another way to consider this energy this month is the idea of allowing yourself full access to all your desires and wishes and then ensuring you both express yourself in these areas but don’t allow any one area to take over from the other. Its not a time to become obsessive about one pursuit but a time to enjoy the many aspects of expression of yourself, in balance with each other.


As we see on the card there are many aspects of your life that can bloom at this time, and you can be of service to others by allowing yourself to be more fully who you are. Stay aware and stay in balance and the restrictions you place upon yourself and those you find around you will also serve you in a positive way.

This month thus is also a time for great enjoyment and fulfillment as you don’t struggle with things you can’t change, but through acceptance, find a deeper more satisfying way of life.

The card is strong coloured yellow and this is a colour of the solar plexus, the area of personal power, a strong sense of self and an independence from others control. As you focus on what your spirit truly wants so you can be of greater service in the world – your developing self-confidence allows for you to truly play the part you are made for. This month sees increasing self confidence and self esteem after the challenges and trials last month removing old patterns of thought and behaviour.