July – Knight Wands from Sacred Circle deck

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This month’s card is from the Sacred Circle deck. We have Knight of Wands – key word Adventure!

Knight of Wands

Knight of Wands

This card speaks to us of following our passions – he carries the flaming torch and it lights his way. He is comfortable with the unknown and with exploration. For us to get the most out of this month we need to follow what has heart and meaning for us and release any fears of ‘what may happen if..’ Last month saw us step out of our comfort zone having realised that the lack of risk in our lives kept us trapped. Now we take those risks and are not worried or held back by ‘what if’s..’ we express ourselves in our own unique way and trust that whatever results from this is what is needed on our path forward – we may have challenges along the way but these are seen as part of the great adventure rather than something that we ‘should’ have avoided.

So greet all challenges with a creative spirit and with courage and boldness. Know all that occurs will strengthen you and enliven you even if it seems difficult at first.

Allow yourself to follow your creative impulses as this knight is a warrior of the spirit so guides us forwards in our highest expression of our true self. We might have, in the past, prevented ourselves from fully allowing our creativity out in case others judged or criticised us and what we produced. this month is time to release those restrictions and to feel the freedom of being who we truly are. Have a exploring mind, trying things out and seeing what happens, rather than feeling you need to get something ‘right’ just allow yourself to play and explore. What is discovered and what is created will show you your next steps, and will enable you to feel more and more yourself.

This knight is wearing clothing of red yellow and orange, the colours of fire – also symbolic of creativity, passion, physical activity , energy and a strong self-esteem. This month these elements within you grow and are able to be lived more fully than before. You will feel more lively, and active than usual, partly because as you have accepted yourself more fully than before you now have released energy stored within you trying to be something for someone else. Now you let go of this you find your enthusiasm for life increases and you have more energy than you would normally. You can put it to good use to actively create the future you have always wanted. Allow your joy and excitement to guide you.

As the fire of the flaming torch burns so it transforms and releases help energy, so as you transform yourself andyour situations around you so you release the trapped energy there. This may mean you find yourself releasing emotions you have held onto for a long time – doing so sets you free.

So this month take every opportunity that comes your way and looks exciting. Allow the spirit of discovery and adventure to come into your life in both simple and mundane ways as well as in grander more obvious activities. Every moment of our life can be a creative act is we stay present and see every situation with fresh eyes and containing the possibility of creative solutions each day and each moment.

Trust in yourself and your heart – it will lead you forwards into a more exciting life experience. It is a good month to try new things and to get creative in any way that draws you.

Reading for June 2015 – 4 Cups – Llewellyn Deck

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This month’s single card reading is from the Llewellyn deck and is the 4 cups. It shows a young woman looking at the ground sitting at the bottom of a old tree. Three cups in front of her and 1 hanging from the tree. There is a river flowing in front of her the 3 cups are on the other side of the river.

4cups

The three cups on the other side of the river are like those things we kind of want but have given up trying to get they are not far away but out of reach enough and we feel tired and exhausted. We hold ourselves inwards and don’t take any further steps out into the world – we are safe in so many ways – just not very happy. This card is very much about being in a place of safety and this safe place becoming a trap. We start to fear risking something new as where we are is OK. OK, but not ideal. We don’t notice the passing of time in the form f the river, nor do we see that the old and wise wisdom of the tree holds something for us – something we can reach for if we simply stand up and see it.

There is no hurry in a sense – the opportunity is not about to be taken away so we can allow ourselves to sit for as long as it takes us to pluck up the courage to see things from another perspective and take the opportunities that this brings. However if we sit forever then forever time ticks on and we don’t really feel fulfilled or excited by life – it becomes like simply existing.

So in June it is time to start asking yourself whether the comfort you feel is actually worth risking in order to feel more joy, excitement and passion in life. Is there a risk you need to take that actually honours yourself more. Sometimes we see this in our relationships – particularly long term ones – where we are happy enough together that we let little things go and say “its ok I didn’t get to do what I wanted on this occasion – my partner is happy – next time!” But we have said this over and over through the years and it builds up – did the ‘what you wanted’ actually happen or has it become a pattern to avoid conflict by letting the other get what they want?

It is also seen in our relationships with our children when we sacrifice our needs for theirs and forget to make time for our own. Ultimately it leads us to feel down and sometimes resentful and often we don’t even know why.

So take the opportunity in June to do what you want – stand for yourself, allow a little conflict in your relationships in order to honour yourself as much as you have the other.

You may find you have been wanting to meet new people but the routines of being at home have been comforting and tempting you out of taking the risk to reach out to new people, the nerves of the unknown and what might happen holding you back.

Allow the wisdom of the tree that offers you an opportunity – perhaps something from the past you would like to rekindle, perhaps something new that is very solid and actually reliable. All you need to do is stand up and look around to find the opportunity. It is not hidden, except by your assumption it can’t be possible for you. Allow all possibilities and take that first small risky step – things can seem much brighter once you have seen how you have held yourself back.

In business and the work arena the story is the same – perhaps you are thinking of leaving your job but haven’t yet asked for what you ideally want from your current position. Perhaps you feel there is nothing out there. Allow yourself to have an open mind – what if what you want is just there waiting for you? perhaps your boss is happy to give you the pay rise, perhaps the combination of hours and responsibilities is actually completely possible once you ask. Take that step and make it happen – give the universe a chance to offer you exactly what you want.

The trunk of the tree supports you – your own wisdom and experience gained over the years supports you, actually you have created this opportunity yourself you simply need to take it and recognise things are different now to when you made the decision to be happy where you are, as the times change so do the potentials.

Emotionally you may have been holding back your feelings for fear of where they lead but emotions are not good in a static stable place – they are happier when they flow like the river. So allow your feelings out -it is safe to now and they can flow through you and inform you of your next steps once you hear and release what you have been afraid of feeling. You prevent their stagnation holding you up and you allow your passion a place once again in your life. Often the changes needed are less radical than we fear with this card, simply we need a little courage and some small steps and everything starts to move again.

So stand up, trust, go forward, life is offering you just what you need, have courage and faith!

3 cups – Mary El

This month’s card of the month is from the Mary El deck – I love the imagery in this deck. Here we have the 3 cups. The image shows a river coming towards us from the lite sky in the background – it forms three tributaries as it flows over the cliff edge and falls in three channels. traditionally this card is about friendships and how we lovingly connect to each other.

I am instantly struck by the meaning that we all come from the same source of light, however we may conceive of this. We differentiate into individuals with separate paths. we may flow along side others heading in a similar direction to us. As we fall over the cliff edge we trust in our own path and our friends are by our side – doing their own path, but sharing the journey from their own perspective.

There is a feeling of trust as we allow ourselves to connect with another, we can not control the way things will flow – we simply have to discern there is enough in common with the direction we are going and then let go and allow the rest to be as it is. Opening our heart to love and trust as we share with people of like minds.

the tree in the foreground suggests age and wisdom – the many twists and turns life takes us on, sometimes we wind towards one part of the tree then later towards another – overall we are growing, gaining wisdom, strength and reaching for the light in our growth – even in the face of difficult conditions. We allow the experiences we have to shape our future, each challenge bringing a new way of turning to face the light we need to sustain us.

So this month it is time to appreciate your friends and family – those who accompany you on your journey forward in life. We need not to cling, or demand another follows our own pathway, we simply need to appreciate who is with us by our side at any particular time and trust in our own hearts to guide us on our own unique path. Even if a change of direction is needed there will still be others who will be able to share our journey with us – perhaps for a moment – perhaps for longer. So appreciate and let go – be like the river and recognise we are all from one source and have our own unique paths to travel.

Recognise your own history and journey and what has brought you to this place and this time. Your experience is your own and has shaped you – each person you know has their own story and shaping – as we appreciate another’s uniqueness without judgement we are led to appreciate our own, and can honour our own learning and ways.

This month a reflection on the trust you have built with your friends and how your trust in them stems from your trust in your own self, your own commitment to your personal pathway. As we allow ourselves to trust when we fall over the cliff there is a pool to catch us at the bottom so we feel safe allowing others to fall into their own truth also.

The colour of green that is so apparent in this card is telling us to be heart led this month – to focus on what we love and who we love to be with, as well as extending our love to others around us. As we do this we water our connections with people like watering our cherish plants in our garden, we nourish beauty and love in our lives.

Have a wonderful month and enjoy celebrating with your friends, simply and creatively. Spending time on socialising, catching up and making connections will feed both you and those around you.

Enjoy!

Wheel of Life – Margarete Petersen

April

This month’s card reading is the Wheel of Life from the Margarete Petersen deck. There are faces travelling round the image in this deck like a whirlpool some happy some in pain. This card depicts the idea of being affected by the fates in life – how we can feel as if things ‘happen’ to us out of our control. From how lucky we are to how unfair life is.

Wheel of Life

Wheel of Life

Things always change. This month is a time for changing fortunes, things seem to get better or worse of their own accord. Though very often when this card turns up the change in fortunes are more within our control then we think – How we respond to something that occurs to us is a key indicator as to whether we see something as a miracle or as a misfortune.

A really good story which illustrates this point is as follows:

“This farmer had only one horse, and one day the horse ran away. The neighbours came to condole over his terrible loss. The farmer said, “What makes you think it is so terrible?”

A month later, the horse came home–this time bringing with her two beautiful wild horses. The neighbours became excited at the farmer’s good fortune. Such lovely strong horses! The farmer said, “What makes you think this is good fortune?”

The farmer’s son was thrown from one of the wild horses and broke his leg. All the neighbours were very distressed. Such bad luck! The farmer said, “What makes you think it is bad?”

A war came, and every able-bodied man was conscripted and sent into battle. Only the farmer’s son, because he had a broken leg, remained. The neighbours congratulated the farmer. “What makes you think this is good?” said the farmer.”

There are many versions of this story (You can see some here) The main theme being how can we tell whether something is good or bad for us – there are always positives out of difficult situations and challenges with things that go well. In terms of the card if we see ourselves as at the centre of the wheel then we experience life from a point of stillness, if we are on the edge of the wheel then life goes up and down as the wheel turns – at the centre things are constant.

So this month we are being asked to stay in our centre of being. As we return to our spiritual source, our Self, our deepest or highest truth then all that happens around us can be perceived from a spiritual viewpoint and can be seen to be miraculous.  Look out for the miraculous in everything that happens this month.

The other aspect to appreciate is that as we ourselves focus on being centred in our lives we also then make decisions from our centre and small differences in what we decide and when bring to us different circumstances. This month we can also realise how what we are experiencing, how we feel it, is coming from the degree of centred-ness we have had in the recent past. As we constantly strive for our centre so we improve the flow of life more and more. In my experience this card indicates we are ready to embrace that flow more than ever this month and allow our true selves the control over what we do when. As we do this so we find out truth reflected back to us.

Self esteem is high in the month ahead and we have the opportunity to strengthen this through all that occurs. Increasing our self love leading us to expect miracles in all that happens.

Enjoy!

King of Disks – Mary El

This months reading comes from the Mary El deck and we have the King of Pentacles. A image that is graphically representing our wild natures, our creative potentials and the idea that we can gather knowledge from working with the land.

King of Disks

There is a figure of pan on the card looking comfortable and nourished, a feeling of plenty and lushness. Also a sense of truly being king of the material world. Comfortable in it and with it.

So this month sees us as getting comfortable with our physical natures, our bodies, exercise, physical pleasure and material things. We may find this month being one of abundance, we seem to attract what we need in any situation without greed or clinging, it is just there is we trust and allow. We may also be working hard, from our hearts and from the desire to create and make things come into being in the physical world particularly those things that are of practical use, rather than for simply creativity in itself.

We have the opportunity to harness our wild animalistic nature into the service of the greater good of whole – we have fully let go of our self judgement of last month and come into acceptance of all sides of ourselves. Then even our shadow can be used for highest good of all. As we acknowledge our truth we invite all others to acknowledge their too and prevent acting out towards each other for our own avoidance of who we are.

The apple reminds me of both our health through eating well (an apple a day keeps the doctor away) as well as the idea that we might need to risk approaching our temptations to see what gold they also bring with them – how do our temptations try and nourish us? Is this the way to really get ourselves fed or is there alternative ways? As we allow ourselves to learn by our experience so we learn fully at a deep level and truly can make choices in our lives being self responsible rather than acting out of a second hand ‘should’ we may not even understand or believe in.

The king of disks brings good energy for business prosperity and also a healthy work life where we are able to make steady progress. There is no rush and stress involved – simply careful well thought out and executed plans that are benevolent for all involved. New projects are carefully considered and taken only when full exploration has been undertaken.

This month we think things through carefully and move slowly forward with sensible caution, but without fear. It is not fear that makes us slow down, but a balance and inner peace of knowing there is always more work to do and so there is no need to rush to finish something, it is better to pace oneself and go steady to have the endurance to fully participate in the whole journey.

Spend some time in nature if you can this month, to listen to the earth for her messages and how she may help you to become more grounded and abundant in a wholesome way. exercising outside is particularly beneficial at this time as your body attunes to the earthiness of the material world.

Have a wonderful month!

9 swords – Darkana

I shuffle and intend for a card that will have something that speaks to everyone who reads it that month. This month’s card of the month is the 9 Swords from the Darkana deck.

9Swords

It shows a mobile of swords dangling above a baby in a cot. This card is about the ways in which we torture ourselves. We are both the swords and also the baby. We often injure or threaten injury to the most vulnerable, and often innocent, parts of ourselves, with our words and thoughts about ourselves. So, though there may not be any actual injury to be seen, we are hurt and put into a state of fear through our own negative self talk. We condemn ourselves for what we have done, or have not done, or thought about, in fact anything we can turn against ourselves. So through February our tendency to feel bad about ourselves and tell ourselves how unworthy we are is high. However this is also a month of healing – with this threat we can become aware of our hurts from many years back. Often the things we say to ourselves are internalised forms of anger about the past. We criticised ourselves or made something our fault because as a child it was easier to take blame upon ourselves than to really experience the powerlessness we felt, and consuming anger against someone we possibly also loved very much. For a small child the conflict can be too much – we would rather turn the anger to ourselves.

We may have developed strategy of feeling bad about ourselves, or guilty for things, to pre-empt, and seemingly lessen the blow of criticism coming our way, whether or not it was justified. So you might find yourself feeling bad about something in order to stop the feeling of fear of punishment or criticism from someone else.

With these deep, often childhood, patterns, often we don’t know they are active – we simply feel uncomfortable in some way or we feel down. Perhaps irritable with other people for no apparent reason. As these inner processes become conscious then we can take charge and heal ourselves. The situations that bring up these uncomfortable feelings can bring with them the gold of the healing of the deep, or more recent past.

This month have a think about how you put yourself down, how you perhaps feel guilty about things that are not your fault, or feel guilty rather than rectify a situation you did have a part to play in (to keep that negative yet familiar feeling coming). As you become aware of how you do this to yourself – also then recognise this is a response to a very early situation – you have an opportunity to heal it. Trace it back and send love to that child you were then, getting by the best you could in the circumstances, which may have been less ideal for you, and possible for the others involved in the situation too. As you send yourself compassion you are likely to start to feel better. You can recognise in the current situation that what is happening doesn’t threaten you the way your situation of origin did – we are not helpless as adults, but have many resources available to us. We can respond in many different ways and can choose which is right for the here and now, rather than instinctively acting from the past.  So you find ways to both be compassionate with yourself and also from this place find new ways of seeing the situation around you and responding in a way that serves you and is more appropriate for the present. It may simply be a case of realising you are having a go at yourself needlessly and having the courage to trust in yourself anew.

The threats you feel are around you right now are not external, but reflections of your internal fears – work from this place and you can take that dangerous looking mobile down and allow the baby to continue to sleep peacefully and safely.

There is no need to worry something will go wrong that is out of your control, nor is there need to worry about your performance being good enough. Use this month to unpick your past patterns of self cruelty and release the energy stored there. By the end of the month, if not before, you will have transformed this energy into an ally and know that feeling uncomfortable with yourself can lead you to great healing, and thus more joy and freedom in life to be who you are – not just responding through a taught guilt or responsibility that you don’t actually believe in, or perhaps is not even relevant any more.

As part of your compassion for yourself seek out friends and professionals that you can trust to witness your process without judgement. You don’t have to heal without support, in fact seeking and asking for help can be a huge part of the new compassion you are sending your inner vulnerable self. Someone to help you take the mobile down safely.

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May you find great gold through this month and it serve you well.

 

January 2015 and the year ahead

January

The reading for January and also for the year ahead if from the Llewellyn Deck. I have decided to post about 2 cards this time one for the month of Jan and one for the year as a whole and I see we have a lovely energy for 2015 and make a great start in January with a successful breakthrough.

January is 6 Wands. This depicts a warrior returning from battle as the victor, he sits upon his horse in a very upright manner and holds his head high, the challenge behind him has been over come and left him feeling strong and secure. Ready to celebrate the victory.

6 Wands Llewellyn tarot from http://Llewellyn.com

6 Wands Llewellyn tarot from http://Llewellyn.com

So in January you see a further release from challenge, this process started back in October last year and when through a preparation phase in November to then really start working through December. Things that have been holding you back for much time in the past are continuing to release you into freedom – you may feel a need to continue seeing yourself, your impulses and actions in a positive light and continue to have the courage to hold your head high, rather than to slip back into old traps from the past. Not that your past is being evokjed this month, but that habit could tempt you to slip. Remember things have changed and it is not like it used to be – you have won the battle – you need not feel you have a continued fight on your hand – you just need to assume that walking in the direction of your passions will lead you to better and better things, not down an old worn path as you occasionally fear.

It is a month to think positively about events and happenings in your life – not because the power of positive thinking makes difficult things go away magically, but because many of the things you think could be difficulties are not in fact – the greatest difficulty will be the courage to assume the best will happen and trust that thinking positively will not jinx events in some way.

Trust in yourself – you know deep down you have only highest goals in mind – this month you can trust this, and assume others can see this in you and any perceived conflict is simply each person expressing their own individual freedom. As you can accept you have this freedom of choice and to act on your desires in a wholesome way – so it is easy to allow others this freedom too and promotes harmony for all.

So be self confident and self assured, walk tall and hold to your own personal power. The feeling of stability and acceptance will ripple out to all others around you and help them experience the same feelings about themselves. Arrogance is lost as you no longer feel it is only you – but you share your positive view of yourself in your extension towards others – seeing them as deserving and being as good and as worthy as you feel you are yourself. There is no selfishness in your stance. In fact any wobbles of confidence you feel are not as the result of others undermining you – but of your own self denigration from habit, rather than reality. As you remember this as soon as you feel a judgement of another come upon you know that this is simply what you are saying to yourself and can be dropped. The instance you let go of it your view of another returns to loving, compassion, and your own freedom of choice to act also returns quickly.

So do what you need and want to do, don’t feel beholden to others, nor fear being selfish. Love and compassion grows within you as you drop old battles and walk forward confident refreshed and strong. Challenges are easily over come this month  and others look to you for leadership, and you given empowerment as you leading method.

2015

3 Cups From Llewelly tarot - http://llewellyn.com

This is a great start to a year that promises social connection with true friends as its main theme. We have 3 cups as the card for the year as a whole and this is a strong card of friendship and joy. Often connected to celebration also, but in a wholesome, deep way rather than simply hedonistic pleasure. On the card there is a full moon celebration depicted with 3 women being out in nature celebrating the turn of each cycle of the moon as the year unfolds. So too regularly through the year ahead you will find yourself gathered with friends and close family to celebrate. Also to constantly remember to renew yourselves. You may decide to commit to some regular meeting with like minds in this year and allow these meetings to be places to share what has been happening as a way of letting go of the recent past to bring yourselves into the present more and more. As you no longer create stories that define you, so you are free to move into whatever your soul inspires you to in the present moment. Your experience of living becomes more and more connected to the current moment and less and less a reaction to past events and situations – the deep past becomes completely clear and the more recent past isn’t carried with you.

From this comes the ability to celebrate each moment of our lives anew. The celebration with others helps us also stay aware of the differences we each experience in our life paths and how each person uniquely has something to offer the world. There is no need for us to be the same or see things the same way – but as we witness each other we both teach and learn at the same time and share our increasing joy together. Joy is a key feeling and experience in the year ahead, it stays in reach by our willingness to be in the moment and to release the difficulties of the past.

By our awareness of natures cycles we come to see and understand our own and so become less attached to our emotional experiences – the everyday up’s and downs of life become something we experience, but also observe. Our identity becomes increasingly associated with the observer and so we find ourselve more detached from the everyday turning of the wheel and are in our center more and more often.

So seek out chances to connect with others in loving exchange, to socialise and be with others who simply accept you for who you are, whatever you are experiencing at the time. And focus on constant release of the old, and embracing the new fresh day as the year progresses.

On a mundane level you might find that you have a close circle of friends and or family around you who are supportive of you in all your goals. Your may also find you are invited to social events more this year than usual, which are enriching experiences. Your circle of friends may widen and connections with people you already know deepen.

Celebrating the darkness within as well as the light as all part of what makes us unique and also connected. Our difficulties can bring us together as much as our joys.

Through these connecting energies this year we grow organically and from impulses deep in our soul. There is no rush or striving needed, just the need to allow space, time, and nourishment of our dreams. They will then grow naturally of their own accord.

Happy New year to you all – the year promises joy and friendship, happiness and release from struggle – your hard work has paid off.